Ok so after we had a lovely time at the park for afternoon tea today for my little cousins 2nd birthday, the family decided it would be nice to have Easter at my house this year. I agreed, then later on went EEEEEEK!
<--- This is what I see myself as doing during the week.
Well I know its the end of March (wow hasn't that gone fast!) but I just made this new page (Celebrations) and was busting for an excuse to put something in it. So I figured, who needs an excuse. I love Christmas, so that's enough of an excuse for me!
By 'party', I mean 'life'. It's my LIFE and I will cry if I WANT to!! That's right, yesterday I cried. And I cried. AND i cried some more! Sometimes everything comes rushing in at once, like 20 people trying to fit through a door. Yesterday everyone fell through that door and straight onto freshly cleaned floors!
I am probably not making much sense. What I mean is all of life's stupid problems overwhelmed me. All at once. I got stressed about my kids, thinking I don't look after then well enough, feed them nutritious meals enough and can't supply them with everything they need. I got freaked out about money, wow that's a doosey of a problem, so many things revolve around stupid money, how sad is that! There were many other things that got on top of me but if I named and shamed them all I would be here forever.
For ages I have hated my room. I hated the way it felt when I walked into it. It was mainly because of my awful bed, the walls are a hidious colour also, but that will have to wait for now. I did a little bit of shopping and tidied up my bed a little bit, as well as my bedsides. I feel so much happier in there now, and it cost less then $100. Worth it? YES! I sleep much better now. Maybe if you are having trouble sleeping, you should try looking at your room and seeing if you can make it more 'you' and relaxing. This is what I have ended up with. Bare in mind the walls WILL be white one day. :P
My kids LOVE their sandwiches! They are a staple here as they are cheap, quick and easy (Many comments I could insert here, but won't this time hehe). I decided one day that I freeze everything else, why not sandwiches. Gave it a go and its been working out great.
Most of you don't know this, but I was only 16 when I had my first child. I had 4 by time I was 22. Most people don't even have their first child by 22 (these days), so I still cop the looks from people down the street and at my kids school. This was very difficult for me to admit to people a little while ago in fear of the looks, the immediate judgement on my parenting abilities, and the dreaded 'You're just a baby!". These things all made me feel small, inadequate and a bad mother.